someone tell me is it possible to be so depressed that i cant cry about things anymore or not care about anything. but it feels like i sill do care cause everything hurts but then again everything is numb.

imma turn this tumblr page into a rant page because i’ve been super ranty to my friends lately and im starting to feel like im losing everyone so i might as well lose tumblr followers instead, fuck it

i should’ve said something… fuck im so stupid :(

i cant stop thinking about you… That first day of class you caught my eye like wild fire. I don’t know what it was about you, maybe it was your smile, your smirk, your laugh but it drove me crazy… I wanted to know you, i wanted to know your story. I must’ve gazed in your direction over 100 this semester. Just the thought of you staring back at me gave me anxiety. That last day of tutorials you decided to sit next to me out of all the other available seats in the classroom. You made me so nervous that i could barely move. I felt my whole face heat up and my heart was beating so loud that i swear if it was quiet enough you could’ve heard it. I wondered that whole time in class why you sat next to me. I wanted to think that maybe there was a chance that you wanted to know me too but i knew that was very unlikely because you didn’t speak to me either. Maybe you wanted to and was shy too, but i guess i’ll never know. I was too shy to say anything and i regret it but its too late now. All i can do is wonder what could’ve happened if I had the courage to just speak to you at least once.

- The shy girl who should’ve said something :(